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| Still in Kentucky |
| 03.29.05 (1:02 pm) [edit] |
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I'm in the library at Murray State waiting for Jeremy to finish working on a paper so maybe one of these semesters he can graduate and maybe the next 3 months (starting Saturday) will be the last lengthy period of time we have to be apart. Well, I caught up on my This Modern World for the week. I guess we are going to the movies to see Robots tonight. Jeremy thinks he's going to make lots of money by watching new pop-ups every 30 seconds. He has a grand total $5.25 after being online over 11 hours. Meanwhile, at $5.15 or more an hour, X11.5 he could have nearly $60. If it's too good to be true it probably is. Supposedly, these people will find an excuse to not pay you when the time is right. Plus it's annoying as hell. It finally stopped being cold and rainy here for the moment. Current Mood:    Warm, thirsty, and happy
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| Quite Happy right now |
| 03.27.05 (3:28 pm) [edit] |
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I am in Kentucky...actually right this second, I am in Tennessee. I am happy for the moment...very happy, actually. There was some other stuff I was going to put in here, maybe I will later. Current Mood:  happyWhat's on: Parent Trap (the new one) |
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| Never getting out of here! |
| 03.24.05 (8:35 am) [edit] |
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I'm never getting out of here! Do you ever have those moments where you feel like you are never going to be good enough and you are never going to get what you want? And all you want to do is go back in time to a place where you never seriously questioned these things? I'm going to be so old by the time I get out of here! I know anyone who is reading this is going to say, "Ooo! 25 (or younger)! Yeah, right, grandma." It's not the age, it's just the sheer amount of time this graduation thing is going to take. Even with Disney World In theory I should be out of here by Spring 2006. But no. So many set backs. Six years for a four-year-degree I'm an idiot... Why couldn't I pick an easy low-pressure major like-- anything but art! Current Mood:   Frustrated and a little crazy
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| Why cynicism keeps you content |
| 03.23.05 (3:05 pm) [edit] |
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Is there anybody out there? It doesn't seem like anyone comments on my journal until I draw parallels between manatees and myself. It's a good thing I am so cynical, otherwise not only would I be more disappointed than if I wasn't. Why do I say this? After Kelly decided to not see me on Monday thinking I had already run off to Kentucky (to get lucky...on a horserace) she swore she would allow me to be in her prescence after class today (i actually heard her voice on the phone, but it was probably an electronic simulation). As I am leaving my last class I get a text message. I automatically expect it say something along the lines of, "i'm dying and can't see you." Anyway, I didn't see her again today either. Well, like I said, at least as a pessimist I am neither surprised nor terribly disappointed. Whereas were I optimistic, I would be very surprised and disappointed. I finally found a program that will let me burn CDs, and I figured out how to make it work. So then, I was pleasantly surprised because after i've tried 3 times, i was beginning to think it was not possible. So now I have a CD that I am going to take to Kentucky, and one that has half of my latest downloads on it, and will be making another one later. Unsurprisingly, this wonderful program is only a free trial good for a few days. Well, I should probably take this time to write my resume/cover letter or catch up on my sketchbook. I found half a bush on the ground that I am going to draw (maybe not quite a bush...) One of my new life goals is to visit Port Nassau on the Caribbean Island of New Providence. Gold stars to anyone who can figure out why. Current Mood:  neutralWhat's on: Hotel California (Live) - The Eagles |
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| 03.21.05 (8:47 pm) [edit] |
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The zit from hell has since being squeezed a couple of times turned into a slightly hard spot, gone numb, turned greenish-yellow and occassionally started to sting. I have wasted two CDs now trying to burn the songs I want. I hate the student store. I try never to go there. This prospect becomes easier when you go there at 6:10 to find that they closed at 6. Kelly has finally decided to be Kelly again. That is, I've seen her once since she got sick. I thought she had just resorted to not giving me a reason for not seeing me anymore. Today I found out she actually thought I ditched a week of school! I wish! If I only didn't have several assignments due, and a midterm I sure would! In less than a week I get to be with my boyfriend! I started reading about pirates again. If anyone wants to see what inspired the look of Pirates of the Caribbean (the ride more than the film), look at Howard Pyle's stuff. They do all kinds of events here in the dorms to get people "involved" or something. Tomorrow night they have, advertised on a symbolic pallette Paintapolooza. First off, what is a Palooza and why does it need painting? Second off, this event presupposes that something, unlike strawberry dipping or homemade ice cream, is a novelty and not homework. I should have painted tonight but i spent all my time in figure drawing and didn't. Current Mood:  noneWhat's on: Come Sail Away - Styx Current M |
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| Feeling OK |
| 03.19.05 (8:16 pm) [edit] |
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I'm in a better mood than I was yesterday and this morning. (I would rather not get into it). Last night was good though. I had dinner with Andrea at BJ's. I'm getting a zit from hell on the low part of my upper lip. I went to my fratority mixer today. It was...ok. All we did was eat and play video games, and those of us who did not video game, like myself, we played pool. The thing I won on eBay a month ago finally came! I got all my thank you cards written! I found an mp3 downloading website in Russia (I always thought Russians had the best downloading sites anyway) where the usually songs cost less than 25 cents, and the exact charge of the song is usually based on the length of the song. (ie The Ramones 2:14 Blitzkreig Bop cost about 10 cents, and Bad Company's Feel Like Makin' Love at 5:16 cost just a little over 24). This actually makes a lot more The lady at Old Navy, Oakridge was very very helpful in ordering the tank top I wanted in the size I needed and helping me use my $10 coupon. I made a point of filling out a very positive comment card for her. I hope her manager gets it. Plus I got a shirt from Old Navy for $3.  I also bought what may well be the cutest and dressiest pair of shoes I have ever owned. They have ankle staps! I love ankle straps! I also feel responsible for helping to finally get the shower head that I always use in the bathroom fixed finally! They replaced it with a brand-spankin' new one that doesn't look a little bit like a penis. The night is young. I feel like going out and getting trashed on draft beer. But I have no one to go with me. It feels kinda lame to me to do it on your own. The reason people call other people when they are drunk is because they for some reason want to share the moment. In exactly one week from this moment, I will be driving home with Jeremy from the Nashville International Airport! Current Mood:  pretty goodWhat's on: Roadhouse Blues - The Doors |
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| Need to get back into my old habbits! |
| 03.15.05 (3:41 pm) [edit] |
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I just saw what my weight was. It was a lot more than I thought it might be. Why did I insist on looking down? This is the reason I don't look at my grades because I don't need a reason to be depressed. I guess I shouldn't be surprised. I don't go to the gym anymore, I eat at least twice a day, I don't substitute water for food anymore, and I don't try to keep my calories on track like I used to. The gym thing is going to be challenging since I feel like I am very busy. So I guess I've got to start counting calories again and keeping them at about 1000 or less. Current Mood:  fat
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| I want to be on Spring Break! |
| 03.14.05 (10:45 pm) [edit] |
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Holy Crap! I wish I were on Spring Break!!! In other news, I went to PBS today and Saturday night (I did not have to be there all day). I took a nice bike ride around Coyote Point Marina in San Mateo and Foster City on Sunday. Trying to get as much as possible on a painting so that a teacher can't completely tear it up has proven to be an excellent motivator; I'm much farther along on it one week into the project than my last one. Two midterms this week. Why is Kelly never well/unbusy anymore? Did I mention I really want to be in Kentucky right now? Current Mood: I don't think there is one little mood icon in my artillery to describe this feeling. I miss the old set. What's on: Jessica - Allman Brothers |
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| Negativity |
| 03.12.05 (11:17 am) [edit] |
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Well, let's see... Every weather report I have found about today's weather is either a lie or grossly mistaken; it's not sunny and 70. It's Cloudy and 60. I'm supposed to volunteer at PBS, but I was scheduled for 6-11, but the paper schedule says 1:30-6 with no person signed up at 1:30-6 (at least on the website) which worries me a little. I have this bad feeling that my entire day is going to be spent there because I have a big mouth and will volunteer to stay all day despite having shit I want to do. My mom just chewed me out for not calling to chit chat enough. Still frustrated with the possibility of a spy in our initiation last night. Mozilla is starting to give me pop-ups which means it's probably time to start thinking about a new browser. So, so far it's shaping up to be a wonderful day. Current Mood:   negative and hungry
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| A few bad apples |
| 03.12.05 (12:39 am) [edit] |
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Leave it to a few nogoodniks who misbehave to raise suspicions and investigate suspicious behavior. Granted, I have no proof that a narc was sent in from the university to spy on our initiations to see if we were behaving. The only evidence is another's own suspicious and unwilling behavoir, as if she were a plant posing as a pledge. I wish I had a scanner. I would scan the incredibly bad Photoshop job on the cover of the 2/17/05 edition of the Spartan Daily. It is a good thing it was on a Friday becayse I am embarassed for whoever But it's possible that because of that article, to which the aforemention image was attached, that suspicions have also been raised about our organization. The Spartan Daily is a joke anyway... Current Mood   questioning and ill (as Jeremy would say)What's on: Twilight Zone - Mind and the Matter |
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| Artistic Differences |
| 03.10.05 (10:24 pm) [edit] |
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This weather is really nice. It just needs to not get any warmer. It's warm enough in here as it is. I will be miserable come late April. My suspicions intentionally have yet to be confirmed on this, however, I can already tell my painting teacher is going to smite my painting mightily. I knew that a palm tree in connection with a Pacific Island tiki idol would to him be "too obivious." In class I showed him the tikis. Today I only showed him the left half of the picture and pretended that I hadn't already worked out what would be on the right side. He was already saying that a tiki is "too iconographic" so I should do something to it to make it less recognizable, or that the other side should be jarringly different or something. Just based on the fact that 1/2 a tiki is too iconographic. In conjunction with a tree native to where they are from, hell, why don't i just hit people at the base of their necks with my canvas? It's almost as if he cares more about creating abstract images shrouded in mystery and abstraction than learning to paint well. Some of us have never painted in oils before this class. He didn't give a demonstration. Anyone can abstract something; try to paint a photo, when you can't do it well, say you abstracted it. He negatively critiqued an artist that he liked today for being possibly too "decorative." Which I guess translates to don't paint anything anyone would ever want to hang on their walls. Which translates to "I'm setting you up to be a starving artist and because you have been trained to paint things you could possibly sell. Except to the crowds at the Punished Psyche Gallery in some pretentious part of a city." I don't see the point of making a painting that you want it to be something yet you do something to make it nothing. Mmmmnnnn... Again, i hear my dad's voice asking, "So, why can't you just do what the teacher asks?" In other news: Tomorrow maybe I won't get totally shredded in my art class (which has started to make me increasingly nervous, intrepid, and uncomfortable. My 100W class is embarassingly easy. I've gotten full credit on all but one paper on the first time. Getting full credit on a paper means you get a Tootsie Pop. I have accumulated many many lollypops. We haze the new people in my fratority tomorrow. I opted not to pick up a little sib. I go to PBS again on Saturday night. Current Mood: miffed
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| New Painting Poll! |
| 03.08.05 (9:25 pm) [edit] |
 Well, I guess the Shag influence has gotten to me. Either that or I figured out about half way through my last painting full of reds and yellows that that it had no practical purpose in my future life (and I don't foresee anyone buying it) filled with navy blues, lime greens, and possibly a few turquoises. My teacher is probably going to hate my next painting if I do it exactly the way he probably wants it. I was told I should not do a painting with this photo in it because it was "too pretty" (exact words):  I'm not quite sure what that means. I'm also not quite sure why we have to copy the collage/juxtaposed style of this Rosenquist guy. Somewhere in all this is a rant about making artwork other people like, and you can sell even when you stop liking it, making artwork you like, but can't sell, or, as I am beginning to feel with this class, making artwork neither for your audience/consumers or yourself. This is the part where I start to get frustrated, as my dad will tell you, because a teacher will say, "Red, Blue and Yellow" and I will say, "I don't like red blue and yellow, how about magenta, midnight, and golden rod?" "No, red, blue and yellow." "How about crimson, cyan, and chartreuse?" I don't know why I am that way. And in this case I am rather resistant to being abstract. Incidentally, this is an example of the teacher's art:  Anyway, I want a painting to go in my future home. And these will probably be too pretty/coherant/obvious. I don't see why it should matter what image we paint as long as it is painted well. So, aside from these being not of the best Photoshopping quality ever, what do we think of these compiled images:    Which of these is the easiest to look at? Which isn't the most disturbing? Which would you pick to hang over your mantle/headboard? That is pretty much the point of all this. I should have been drawing. Doing PBS tomorrow. Current Mood: whateverWhat's on: Skateaway - Dire Straits |
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| What I've been doing lately |
| 03.05.05 (10:59 pm) [edit] |
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Well let's see... Despite getting litterally 10 movies for my birthday, I still got 2 Twilight Zone DVDs to watch in my dorm. My toothbrush has become obsolete. I don't really understand why. I spent most of last night downloading and uninstalling supposed CD rippers before finally finding one that wanted to cooperate with my computer. I did camera at PBS this morning. Which was fun at first until some boring money guys had a show, and people stopped calling so there was no one to film because we want it to look like we have a studio full of many different busy people. I wanted to do many other things today, including go to the Pearl Library. But those plans were interrupted when this morning, as I pulled out of the parking garage, my front passenger side tire suddenly started to sound like metal grinding on cement, and like it needed some WD-40. After a panicked call to my dad, who diagnosed the problem as tire issues, my shift at PBS, waiting an hour for the guy AAA pimped out, watching him temporarily take care of the issue, waiting at America's Tires to fix the issue more permanently, much of the day was shot. I got my laundry back from my grandma's. My aunt and her dog came over and she brought me my birthday present, which were used copies of the 3 CDs I asked for (Razor's Edge, Back in Black and Let it Be Naked). I will enjoy those (I don't care that they are used). I saw Andrea dance at her church. I bought the shirt I wanted for my birthday from Old Navy (unfortunately, this blog doesn't like the URL for it so I can't show it to you, dammit. However...) It was on sale! I bought 2 beers at Cost Plus to add to Jeremy's collection. One of them we've tried, the other I've been curious about. I watched The Vagina Monologues last night. I liked it a lot. Next year, I am making Jeremy watch it with me. There were a couple that made me think of him. Comment on this: What do you call it? Whatever comes out, but never pussy. I can't stand that word! I can't say it without utter disdain. It sounds to me like something filthy and not to be touched. (There was a Carlinian rant about society attaching emotion to words but I won't). What would it wear? Boots What would it say? Why the fuck did you have to fall in love with someone 2000 miles away?! What does it smell like: Beauty Finally, an Acrostic Poem: Cute Unh-hunh! Nirvana Tennessee Gwan! Try it! OK, one short Carlinian rant: Why does fellatio sound like an expensive Italian fashion designer, and cunnilingus sound like an STD? "And who are you wearing to the premire tonight?" "This is from the Fellatio collection." "Some of the symptoms of cunnilingus include hives, and puss." "Concupiscence a bold new scent from Fellatio." "While there is currently no cure for cunnilingus, we can recommend a cream that can help treat it." Current Mood: None.
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| "Internal" |
| 03.02.05 (2:42 pm) [edit] |
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Why after convincing myself I was going to be neurotic did I pick such a stupid word as internal? What the hell does that even mean? And about 5 minutes later, I came up with the word I really wanted, insecure. That's what I should really be. Hell, it's me all over! But no. Internal. I'm an idiot. Can I just sleep through my next 3 weeks of class and then go home and go to Kentucky? I've decided my next semi-serious drawing is going to be a picture of a chocolate sprinkled doughnut and an energy drink and I will call it, The Breakfast of Champions. There needs to be a form of therapy offered just for artists. Current Mood:  Still stressed, but hungryWhat's on: It's Only Rock 'n' Roll - The Rolling Stones |
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| just a few minutes... |
| 03.02.05 (9:46 am) [edit] |
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I need just a few seconds of space to myself right now. There must be something wrong if I just want every week to be over. Why do I keep think that the next one is going to be more relaxed somehow? "Do you hate foreign policy?" "Yes." "Do you wish we didn't have one." "If that would mean I wouldn't have to learn it, then yes." Conversation with my dad last night about why I hate pretending to care about a class that is unimportant yet i invest so much fucking time into it. Here is how I feel my academic life is: 6 people jockeying for my time and attention, most of them would probably say that whatever time I am putting in is not enough. And a new fun development: my inability to stay awake past 11:30. It's a paradox: I could take 2 or 3 classes at a time and have plenty of time for all of them yet be an eternal student like my brother and never get anywhere. Or, I could take 6 classes at a time and have no time for any of them and still never get anywhere. I am so far behind on my drawings in my sketchbook, dammit. My painting is supposed to be done this Thursday, (which means I have to probably work on it after hours tonight) And this Friday, I know once again, I am going to be the bad example. I hopefully got better than 50% on this political science quiz. If it weren't for all this crappy General Education (of which I thought there were only 2 upper division requirements, I now see there are 3) I could be a lot happier if it weren't for this shit! Speaking of I'd be a lot happier if it weren't for this shit... nevermind. Maybe later. Foolish idealism about my love life I'd better write that Mice and Men crit... Yes, neurotic is the word to describe Amanda. Neurotic is not a put down. Fat, stupid, bad artist, bitch would be negative. Neurotic is just the truth like burnette, tired, Current Mood: Stressed and tiredWhat's on: Empty Spaces/Young Lust - Pink Floyd |
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| Every week |
| 03.01.05 (8:12 am) [edit] |
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Why is it that every week I find myself at some point thinking, "I just want this week to be over?" Incidentally, I need to come up with a single word to describe myself, and I am not allowed to change it after this Wednesday. Right now, all I can think of is neurotic. But even that I don't think is very appropriate lately. Maybe it is... Maybe more later, but don't count on it. Current Mood:  blah
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