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| Mozilla Firefox |
| 02.28.07 (9:13 am) [edit] |
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Mozilla's Back! Mozilla's Back! Mozilla's Back
Mozilla freakin' Firefox is BACK!!!!!! I've missed you so much! |
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| Birthday evening |
| 02.23.07 (10:41 pm) [edit] |
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Here is how my birthday evening is going to go:
My dad, brother, and husband are going to stay in the old apartment and get drunk and sleep on the floor... And my mother, sleeps with me in my bed at the new apartment... my mother and I have not slept well together in recent years; she snores too loud, we're both a little bit bigger than we used to be when we'd have naptime midday at Disneyland, and the last few times we've been in the same bed together she's pushed me out. And my husband can't see why this is unfair...on my birthday... And this is why it is better to just pretend I don't have a birthday... |
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| Beady, the hamster |
| 02.22.07 (9:28 pm) [edit] |
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And now, for the first time on the internet... Beady! The Hamster 
Wow, that's a lot of html! For anyone reading this, I need to know, which of these pictures do you think is the best one; best composition, most interesting, best focus, best of the two subjects, best lighting, etc. I need to know. Current Mood:  stuff
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| Cell phones |
| 02.18.07 (9:40 pm) [edit] |
I saw this comic in the Merc. It made me smile because this happens to me (us at the store) all the time.
I've never had a job where this happens so much; you're trying to serve someone who is there on their own freewill, and they act like it's an inconvinience for you to request their attention on the transaction. I just want all the stuff to go into the boxes where it is supposed to! I've packed some, but it doesn't look like it which is discouraging. Get to throw out a lot of crap tho. Current Mood:  hungry
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| I Hate Cards |
| 02.16.07 (8:41 pm) [edit] |
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I found the statement on Yahoo! News about the upcoming Lunar Year of the pig (of which I am one) that proves it is all of the Chinese horoscope stuff is true. Singapore fortuneteller John Lok predicted the situation in Iraq will not settle and President Bush will have a bad year. These guys are goooood! But it also says that pigs are lucky. I can say right now that isn't true. My mother is still very hurt that I chose (again) not to acknowledge Valentines Day and don't agree with the fact that just because Hallmark put a holiday on the calendar that we should send a card for it. I generally hate cards in general. My mother thinks it is the only way to actually tell someone you love them; by sending them a mass-produced $3 sentiment that you have decided best articulates how you feel about them. And how perfect the boys in her family are because Jeremy, who apparently wasn't doing anything better than sitting on the mailbox that day, called immediately, and Mike, who supposedly under no prompting of his own bought a card (I find that pretty hard to believe). And how horrible everyone else is for not sharing the same beliefs on cards as she and my grandmother since my grandmother is sad she didn't do cards but also sad she didn't receive any except from the one person who cares about fucking cards as much as she does! And how I haven't quite finished all my thank you notes (a job I was sorta hoping my husband might pick up some of the slack, despite that more people from my side sent us stuff, I still thought he could help, that's what I get for thinking, but it's all my fault). There is a lot more I guess I could say about cards, how generally pointless they are, how conformist holidays are, the whole thing about send a card because Hallmark/the calendar tells you to, but fuck the other 364 days, how the last time I sent a card just because she used it against me to teach me a lesson, how I don't want cards (or presents or anything else) if she is just going to make me bitchy, and sullen about them one way or another. But I won't. My birthday is still cancelled. I don't want anyone to feel they have to buy me a card, or a present. And I don't want to feel guilty about the expedience with which I acknowledge it. So don't even give me something to acknowledge. (Awfully egotistical assuming people are going to give me presents, isn't it?). Current Mood:  bitter
Everything sucks. |
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| Don't get caught up... |
| 02.15.07 (9:29 pm) [edit] |
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This is stupid.
For Valentine's Day, my mom gave us a gift card to Chevy's. This evening I called to thank her for it, and she bitches me out for not calling last night. And I just want to get caught up in all that, her bullshit. But, although I probably should have called last night (I did get busy last night), she was way out of line and I did not deserve what I got. Apparently, my dad was actually standing up for himself against her (good for him, even if I wouldn't've agreed with him, good for him. The only thing I got that the argument was about was Grey's Anatomy, but apparently they weren't fighting about a TV show?). This isn't the first time my mom has used gifts to teach me a little lesson. When I sent them movie tickets, she didn't thank me for awhile just to show me how it felt. I know this is how she has to express her love. But Christ, I don't want gifts that badly. I cannot get to counseling soon enough. On the positive side, my brother did call me right back and we had a bitch session about my mom. We don't bond like that very often. Blaaaaah! Current Mood:shitty (the icons won't come up). This is good. I am definetely not going to miss trying to get into counseling this time. Incidentally, when did "review" and "revue" mean two different things? |
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| Portfolio Revue |
| 02.15.07 (1:18 am) [edit] |
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I just found out that I would most likely not pass the portfolio revue until Fall.
This is distressing news. But at least i've gotten finally gotten some honest un-vague feedback. And apparently the reason that everyone is better than me is because I'm creative, smart, but have no talent and this is not a major where you score many points for brains. I wonder if I should even bother applying... *SIGH!* Current Mood:  not happy, again
Still no word on any apartments. We might just have to suck it up and stay here... And all the possibilities to do with that empty semester...another Disney college program sounds fun! (not sarcastic; it's funny sometimes how time edits stuff. Obviously there are a lot of challenges with this idea...). I need something to really really really depress me on Sunday night/Monday morning, that way I won't be thinking, "Maybe I shouldn't try to get a counselor, i feel better today than i did the other day..." nobody is probably going to remember my birthday. If I plan anything no one will come...everyone will flake. Plus we'll probably be moving that day...maybe...I also won't get the day off, Jeremy won't do anything, most likely...shit. I wish I didn't have a birthday. There was a brief period where I was all egotistical like, "Where can we have my birthday? Let's ask people to go here!" I don't need a reason to feel more depressed. |
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| Everything sucks. |
| 02.13.07 (5:29 am) [edit] |
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Everything that is wrong with us is my fault. I hate me right now. Everyone would be better off without me. Life would be better for everyone if they never met me.
Maybe I should take all the bad things that are happening (mostly not school/art related) as a hint; I shouldn't even persue a course of art because I will never ever be good enough and how many subtle hints does one need to get that across? Nothing can go right for us. It's all my fault. I hate me. I am a curse, a calamity, yeah. Current Mood:  depressed
It also occurs to me that everyone has a lot of ideas and opinions about stuff, but no one has any solutions. They just kinda like to point out what's wrong. And everyone knows what they say about opinions... |
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| Hope |
| 02.07.07 (9:51 pm) [edit] |
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Hope is what you have when there is nothing else; it's a dellusion, like me passing the portfolio revue, or my husband not having a job that involves saying, "Down the hall, to your left."
Anyway, there are two places Jeremy is going to (hopefully) see tomorrow. Hope that we can get one of them. Actually, hope that the one that is 700 sq ft, and $800/mo is better/more available than the one that is 500-600 and $845/mo. But hope that if the one suddenly doesn't become available, the other one still is, and...yeah... neuroticalness Is it me, or Coke commercials particularly schmaltzy lately? No, they always are. Current Mood::  whatever...
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| Nuetrality, for the moment |
| 02.04.07 (8:37 pm) [edit] |
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I swear, every damn apartment looks the same; same boxy shape, apartments just lined up one right next to another, two stories, iron railing on the side. Were these things mass produced, or did the powers that be just assume that poor people would be living in them and therefore needed no additional unique or stylish nuances?
The apartment we were so going to move into except...yeah, had the same look outside and was good on the inside. Maybe I won't be totally crushed. My birthday is coming up. I don't want to think about it. If I plan anything, no one will come, the whole thing will just be a reminder how I have no reliable friends, and how unattractive I am. Besides, whether or not we have a home by then, we'll probably be moving that weekend. Blah. I probably do need to go to counseling. And I hate that I have to tuck my shirt in at work now. It's not comfortable. Current Mood:shitty |
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| Un-Happiness 2.1 |
| 02.03.07 (8:36 pm) [edit] |
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Here is what we are up against in our apartment hunt: As mentioned, in 28 hours an apartment we really liked went away. Today, Jeremy looked at an apartment at 1:00, decided he wasn't crazy about it, but invited me to check it out anyway. By the time I got my lunch at 3, and got down there, the apartment was gone. Now, it's probably just as well, however, apartments go in hours. I've never heard such a thing. This has gone from shopping to war. The other thing I guess I have learned from these experiences is to actually see the place before you waste time/effort/hope going to see it. Stupid hamster... |
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| Un-Happiness 2 |
| 02.03.07 (10:15 am) [edit] |
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Further proof we can't get a break: My husband has no hours at his other job this week. If he gets fired from there, that will mean $400 less a week for us. Granted, he hates the job, but he needs the money and would rather quit on his own terms. In the 10 minutes while looking at one frightening "apartment" in downtown, I got a parking ticket for not seeing the stupid meter behind me. The second apartment we love, that was Thursday. After filling out our paperwork and tracking down all the phone numbers we need, I called the guy on Friday night, and the apartment was already rented out. And to top it off, because we were sure we were going to take the other apartment, which we jumped on as best we could, we turned in our 30 days notice (which is another bit of bullshit about how February is a short month, yet the rent is still the same, and we have to pay about $50 for part of March too), which means we now have a ticking clock to contend with. Sure, we could probably retract it, not without some fun fee I'm sure, and we'll just have to do it all over again. I don't know why it is so fucking hard for us to catch a break. Maybe the one Jeremy is seeing solo today will be just as good... On an amusing note, my hamster moved all her bedding into her wheel last night. Which is no easy task because her wheel is up a spiraled ramp. |
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