I have almost no more excuses! I've got to work on that damned video...
But it's so big and overwhelming! I'll do it tomorrow.
Update (11:13pm) I finally decided to do something. My editing software doesn't like my camera. My camera doesn't like my antique operating system. I was able to capture video through the moron editing software that comes with the camera for just the first time I opened it.
The new plan is to sneak into my old school, do a batch on some of the tapes and whatnot there, save all of the raw footages that FCP makes onto my portable drive, and bring them back home and just edit those files.
Man, I'm tired of things not working! I'm tired of technology.
I have had a very good couple of days. I got to school early, I got my ID card, I discovered I hadn't been dropped from all my classes. I saw a nurse at the health center. I checked out some more books for my RHPS epic essay which is starting to get unwieldy. I made an appointment to see a counselor. I met some people in my intro grad class in which there are 8 (yes, just 8).
Last night, I saw Tropic Thunder, which I liked. Tom Cruise really surprised me.
Last night I also saw Fear and Loathing In Las Vegas which I liked because watching Johnny Depp as a strange little bald man hopped up/down on whatever is enjoyable. Apparently he is reprising the role as a younger character.
And today, I closed at work. I made a schedule for myself which I failed to keep and got very far behind on. Then all of a sudden, I realized I was early. Somehow, I got right back on schedule and on top of things. I got out earlier tonight than I ever have. It was the earliest I had ever been late.
Alright. We'll see how tomorrow goes.
Dude, why are all the books on Amazon about "friendship" either incredibly schmaltzy or Christian? Did it ever occur to anyone that people might have crippling problems?
Tomorrow, I begin a new adventure or possible trip down the river Styx or both. I start grad school at SFSU.
I have no idea what to expect. After taking a few of a particular kind of class you begin to know what to expect. This is grad school. Aaah! Scary! I don't know it's going to be like. People have only described it to me in abstract terms.
Plus, I have to choose between two under grad classes. I will pick whichever is more relevant, or has the cheapest textbook.
PS This t-shirt made me laugh.
For those who don't remember, this is in reference to Boston going apeshit when a promotional light board with this character from the Aqua Teen Hunger Force movie was found. There were several of these up all over the country, were put up by fans/volunteers, I believe legally, and had been in place for several weeks before it was called out to be a bomb/terrorist thing. The young fans who put it up were arrested. They were cleared of charges intending to cause panic. Turner TV for some reason apologized for causing Boston to overreact and gave the city and homeland security $1 million each.
Wow. Goldie is being promoted to checker. For those of you playing along at home, Goldie is the cute little blonde girl who had less seniority than me yet seemed to somehow always get better shifts (must be because she is sleeping with the produce manager who is something of a manwhore anyway, and every other manager with a penis wants to be sleeping with her).
This is an outrage. Aside from all of the baggers, everyone who isn't a manager or a checker already deserves this more than she does. Everyone. That is probably about 30 people who were not ever asked for the opportunity to make more money for standing around. It's cool. The rest of us will work our asses off for customers, maintaining our area for surprise health inspections, and keep up on our legal temperature documents.
I wonder if anyone will call the union. I might. I'm sick of the manager(s) thinking with their little heads. I was comfortable. Now I want to leave again.
Oh, well. She needs this more than I do. I have a degree, I am starting my Masters, I am going to work to actively make sure I am employed after that, and most importantly, I can pass a drug test!
And I take a great sense of Schadenfruede that someday all that smoking she does will give her skin like beef jerky and a voice like George C. Scott.
Today will be different. Today I will have at least one, instead of no, competent people working for me.
Today, the health department inspector will not show up after the manager leaves and while I am the person most familiar with the department (which is saying nothing) and ask me a bunch of questions to which I do not know the answer.
Evidentially, some stupid woman (someone told me they know who it is) called the health department on us because she said, "All our food tasted like fish." The health department inspector could not figure out why that was. I have three theories. One, her deli food sat too close to her fish in the fridge. Two, she's a nitpicky person who thinks everything tastes like fish. Three, she did it because she could. When someone calls the health inspector, it's serious, nevermind their sanity.
Anyway, what a stupid slandering bitch. The whole ordeal set me back by about a half hour, plus having to take care of everything else the 10-7 person is supposed to do and didn't.
I really don't understand why stuff like this always happens to me. I think, "Today is the day I am going to accomplish this glorious task I need to do." Then I start to do it, only to find I don't have some product, device, card, etc. that would make getting the glorious task done.
Like on this camera which I am starting to find more and more flaws in. It is made for morons who don't really want to use miniDV technology, they just want a fancy-looking digital camera. I have discovered that not only does it not come with a decent battery, or a microphone jack, yet a memory card for some reason, it also does not come with the firewire cable I need to make this video happen.
I am now understanding that the firewire was designed by Apple. Apple: We want to be different; screw you.
So it's been over a week, people are starting to ask questions. Now I guess I have a legitimate excuse. "I'm waiting for some piece of technology to come in."
I think I am going to replace the "Money Dance" song (Pink Floyd's money) with this:
It's a little more pop-ish (even if it's ironically so).
I'm going to also start working on my mini-sequel to Sven tomorrow at the Boardwalk.
I had also considered animating a dive, but I guess that isn't happening.
And the best news I've heard all week:
AC/DC is finally releasing a CD. This means a tour is finally going to happen. I wasn't a fan back in 2001 the last time they toured. Now I am. I will be in line several hours in advance on whichever morning those go on sale.
Tomorrow is my day off. I've just got a feeling I am going to be covering shithead's ass tomorrow.
He was not the one who called in sick causing me to come home a few hours early on Tuesday.
However, he went on a vacation, which was promised to him when he was hired. Nevertheless, it screwed me up when I was asked to work on a day of my test...won't go there.
I know shit happens. Lately I feel I have been living evidence that shit happens. But he has been late from lunch several times for various reasons. Now he won't be able to come in to work until 3:00 because his flight for his vacation has been delayed. Plus he's a lousy worker.
Maybe they will let me work only the morning shift until his sorry butt gets there. Maybe he will be gone soon.
The battery was OK until the garter scene. They locked the room my charger/AC unit was in, and none of the wedding caterers claimed they could get in. A wedding guest from my store managed to find someone to open the door, right about the time I realized the unofficial maid of honor had taken everything out of the room (including the charger) and put it somewhere. Had I known that, I probably could have at least gotten the groom throwing it. Of course for awhile immediately after that, nothing happened.
I am really not looking forward to logging everything. I have two hours of video to get through. Much of it is lousy I'm sure. It is one of those tasks where thinking about the task is daunting, but once I actually do it, I think I will be OK.
I'm also a little worried about the video gumming up my computer somewhat. Video files are massive. I hope my computer can take it.
That is my day-off task, get the video done as much as possible.
Shithead at work decided to call in sick tomorrow right before deciding to go to a 4-day car show that screwed me so now I have to leave my parent's house (where I retreated to after finding I would have 3.5 days off in a row) earlier. Oh, well. (32 hours now instead of 28).
My husband does not have steady full time work again. Oh, well. He could be unemployed for a week, he could be unemployed for two months. Oh, well.
Because of all the crap at work, I have to reschedule a podiatrist appointment. Oh, well.
Because of lack of benefits, I can't quit my soul-crushing job until who-knows-when. Oh, well.
P.S. I have finally located my future college's counseling services webpage, mostly as proof that they have such a program. And they seem to have a Taikwando club; I could use a structured environment where I can hit things.
Yesterday, I talked to my mom. She asked how I was. I said nothing terrible has happened yet, so I guess good.
Today, is different. The day before was different too. I had a semi-decent schedule this coming week. I had the day off for test I needed, I had a fair number of hours. Then this morning they decided to rearrange everything, including the day off for the test. Had I known I would get today off, I would have scheduled the test for today. But not being psychic I didn't. So I feel bad about not being able to adapt to their whim and know it's going to be challenging to be short-handed. And I have several fewer hours than I did before.
And I know why it is. It is because of this big fuck-up they hired. He has worked about two weeks. Since then, there was a day that was a complete travesty because he was taking customers out of order, and not thinking, he comes back late from lunch, he ruined a pair of gloves, he's just dumb. And to top it off, he has worked two weeks and already requested four days off in a row (for a car show or something stupid), including my test date that they tried to schedule me for; I have more seniority, and I asked for it long before his ass ever got there.
He is half way through his probation. I hope they are smart and fire him.
In other news, my husband confessed to me last night that he will probably be let go from his $14/hour casino job.
That means I'll be the only one with benefits, which means I can't leave and attempt a more grown-up job until who-knows-when, probably another month of no double-albeit-lousy income, and us fighting about his lack-of-job a lot.
I don't know why I thought this month would be better; just because the calendar changes doesn't mean the situation does.
I was at the drive-in the other night. I saw Step Brothers which sucked, and Journey to the Center of the Earth which was just ok. But I saw a poster for Disaster Movie
So, so far we've had Scary Movie (four times), Not Another Teen Movie, My Big Fat Independent Movie, Date Movie, Epic Movie, Meet the Spartans and Superhero Movie now this.
So, what "Movies" haven't we seen?
Animated Movie In which a big green ogre and his pair of talking toys investigate the haunted house across the street only to find in infested with smart-ass penguins.
Cult Movie A pair of hitpeople (played by members of the opposite sex) are on their way to a job. But their car gets a flat tire and they have to stop at a convenience store. In the store, two Star Wars fans take them into a back room which is actually a secret laboratory for a transvestite/mad scientist. While in there, one of the hitpeople sees a girl that they knew when they were in Paris and had an affair with. Meanwhile, a 300-lb drag queen comes to challenge the transvestite/mad scientist for some academic acheivement. The whole thing culminates with an erotic bowling tournament.
I also haven't seen "Documentary Movie" (which will have something to do with global warming and McDonald's), or "War Movie" which would be touchy since there are some who think that our troops are sacrosanct. Mel Brooks covered the Western, which...
wow. I just got a rather distressing phone call. I don't feel like finishing this post.
I got a brand-spankin', well-revued-for-the-price new camera. I have found out two things since buying it. #1: No microphone jack; I guess they assume anyone using the camera won't be semi-professional or just want to just record one subject and not everything else in existence.
#2: The battery that comes with it has a life of about 45 minutes. I really really should have foreseen this. They will only give you enough battery life to leave you wanting [to spend] more. If I had thought about it, I could have bought one off eBay for about $10 or $15. The wedding is today. My options for dealing with this at this point are drive to another county, spend $80 on a super-duper battery. Or spend all the down time charging the battery I've got.
So, I've got 3-4 hours of tape, and 45 minutes of battery. Niiiiice! We are hoping for an exceptionally short ceremony.
Right now I am tired of spending money on the camera. It's never enough that you can just buy something, you've got to buy so much stuff for your stuff. You can't just have a camera, you have to have tapes, a bag, a memory card for some reason (they have a place for a memory card but not a microphone, the intended audience is immediately apparent), a battery that lasts more than 45 minutes, and other stuff.
I was perusing the electronic store the other day, it is amazing to me how many products there are for products. This is especially true of the iPod. There are skins, stereo docs, headphones, speakers, car chargers, back-uppers, FM transmitters and lots of other things. So many things for one little simple thing!
It kind of reminds me of this, although his take on stuff is slightly different than the one I just presented:
I think about the lengths I go through for some people; many people I care about to some extent or another.
Do any of them care about those extents? Really?
Will any of it matter?
Does it matter if I feel like I go above and beyond for people when I could just do something good enough and minimally like everyone else? Will the recipients remember the details? Why do I put myself through this? Yes, because I care. Why do I care like this? Or is this just a sadistic way of trying to get attention?
The latest development in this whole lost wallet thing is the fact that I don't have a photo ID card anymore.
I tried to buy alcohol at BevMo and was rejected despite being 25 years old.
In one week from Friday, I have to take a test for graduate school for which I of course need a photo ID with signature.
So I think maybe I will try to get a photo ID from my old school (where they think I am still a 2nd baccalaureate student). But of course, you need some kind of photo ID for that too.
I seriously hope whoever it is that has my wallet is really enjoying themselves. I look forward to kicking their ass repeatedly when I see them in hell.
I also can't imagine I am the first person this has ever happened to. There must be some kind of procedure for this...
And to top it off, somebody from my car insurance tried to call me. I probably have to buy a new door for that van with a tiny barely-visible dent in it. Stupid parking lot. Stupid van. Stupid 23-year-old brother who can't drive his own ass around town yet.
This whole not having plastic money or a driver's license thing is pretty damn inconvenient. I hate not being able to use debit cards. Not only is the problem, "I can't buy as many impulse items as I would like!" The problem is also when you try to place a printing order online, and for some reason you can't just pay with cash when the order is ready. Cash isn't even an option.
And at some point I have to go to the DMV. I thought I would go this morning before I go into work for yet another awesome four hour shift. But I am just not in the mood. Maybe after work I will go.
Then there are all the other cards that need replacing: Costco, Library, AAA. I had two partly-used gift cards in there too.
I can't imagine what could have happened to them. There were no unusual charges on the cards. I put an ad in Lost and Found on Craigslist. I guess I am glad my brand new cell phone wasn't in the purse for some reason too.
Then I need to get a new wallet also; something to put all these cards into when they do finally get here.
My family went to Disneyland without me. I wish I could in good conscience, pretend to be as rich as they do; take one trip down to San Diego, then, because my brother is obnoxious and rather than gag him, turn right around and go down to Disneyland.
I had a dream that I was finally getting to work on my Rocky Horror documentary (for which I have been reading a lot of books lately).
One of the things I remember most clearly about the dream was that I was in the theater and I shouted something back at the screen (as is what one does when one sees RHPS in a movie theater) and I was shushed.